the other day i found somebody is missing in me and that is ME! i am not the only one in me suddenly realizing how many people i am living with always who have grown into a crowd speaking at a same time for i am listening to the voices of others always the voices of forefathers priests friends neighbours or enemies voices all jumbled up forming a thick layer of cloud within me or the voices cropping up from the hideouts of biases fears unforgivingness or the voices owing their genesis to the knoll of my hatred anxieties or paranoia! oscillating between my thoughts to actions or actions to thoughts perplexed i thought where is the room for listening to me my inner voice my inner guide amidst these multiple voices now i knew why mystics preferred mountains for they wanted to hear less less of distractions to their 'self' how do i make a conversation with me my consciousness! learning to quit them for a quiet ME! time to assert now to tell them ' please leave me alone' knocking them out completely i thought may be possibly impossible but in my trying to find myself unburdening the past guilt biases i can see the clouds blowing away for a clearer sky who knows i may find the grace within i may meet my inner voice my inner guide more often and those godsend moments within me or around!