Waiting.. //

What else

I could have done

than waiting !

the sun moon stars ,

all waited along with me

before retiring for the day

only to join me

the next day,

on my waiting spree !

I continued keeping

the doors and windows

of my heart and soul

open,

unreserved

undistracted

only to witness

the glimmer of enlightenment

enamour me,

handhold me

in transcending

to the other side of river,

towards tranquility and bliss

to the woods comprising

‘ you and me ‘

towards the realization

of You are with me !

@ Kamakhya


			

Euphoria

Something missing 
Somewhere,
amidst the deafening buzz
and euphoria.
The whisper whistling  despair 
and remorse,
still sneaking in.
Someone behind the drapery,
shouting at me
the black shadow of conscience,
dissecting my thoughts threadbare,
cursing the polluted chambers of heart,
deep inside 
at the epicentre of my karma(actions).
Guilt and repentance
Just entered my room,
to talk to me,
recriminating all the way
in the wintry night,
a quandary in the misty festivities, 
ephemeral glitz outside 
and the snowflakes around.
Why I did not keep a track,
I wonder
how the rising resolutions of quiet midnights to transcend,
had fallen paralysed in the new mornings,
strangulating the goodness or godliness with a rope of lust or matter.
Unbelievable.
The smiling light with embracing hands still calling me near,
lovingly,
to forgive,love me
asking me to replicate 
the same for others.

Merry Christmas!


Kamakhya 
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Oneness

is (6)

two drops of water merge
to create a larger drop
retaining their identities
the larger drop 
now falls into the ocean
to become one with the ocean
still keeping its molecules,atoms
but
with a gigantic canvas of consciousness
expanded to the infinity
feeling what the ocean feels
seeing what the ocean sees
hearing what the ocean hears 
in the oceanography of life 
we 
the tiny drops in the ocean 
called God 
one with HIM 
a reflection of infinity
with the soul springing from
or merging with the supreme soul
one with all 
or all with one 
if it is so..
the worldly sojourn needs
the rekindled energy of oneness
oneness of love 
for love being the raw material 
the cosmos is made 
and loving others 
means loving ourselves
loving ourselves means 
loving the God
let the oneness prevail
reincarnated,
protracted!  


Kamakhya


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Grudge

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If nothing has happened 
why something is still there
the confluence of whys
now and then 
making waves 
at times,violent 
the graphic equalizer of heart 
making too much buzz 
with the musings of hatred 
the strings of unforgiveness 
rising up, as never before 
if sometimes 
the soothing breeze before the rain
promises positivity 
some other times 
the intense humidity of mind 
sends those promises 
back to the farthest yard of heart 
a vagary of climate change 
for the heart and mind 
something in the middle of larynx
difficult to dissolve 
in the world of concretes 
with edifices of ego pride scornfulness
searching the hearts of wax 
is a journey towards futility
if painting the self 
with the colors of ego narcissism 
and  pomposity 
is that beautiful 
then why the colors 
will not look attractive also with them 
if the tags of pride disdain
are not unstitched from the mind 
how the saplings of forgiveness and love 
be planted in heart 
the disconnect to HIS children 
will never bring the connect to HIM!

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Festive Presence

amidst snowflakes, 
lore corroborated 
exhilaration galore,
my disquieting mind,
filled with an ensnaring joy,
craved to find you,
by my side,
from the flurry of excitement,
Season's elations
from the vapors of glee..
i came out to balcony,
looking at the stars
and joys all around,
i inhaled your presence,
the blooming feel-goodness! 

Merry Christmas.





 

Harbinger

the impassioned euphoria, 
the feel-good wintery dreams,
the overcast sky,
appearing like a clean slate,
blue and clear
the stereotype flummery,
sometimes irritates me,
the warmth 
as if gone for a long leave,
even in the holidays time!
and love is reserved,
for equals
or more equals
don't ask..
why not for less equals
or less privileged,
for i  have evolved like this
for years
for my benefits
i don't see the darkness,
behind the sparkling lights
on the streets,
crying faces,
with a lid of despair,
know, by this time,
how unmoved,
the brothers and sisters are
a fiasco of heart,
a zone of endangered compassion
feeling good,
with them
is a wonderful thing to do,
with a joystick of love
for the search engine of heart,
for looking out,
for the supreme light,
elsewhere,
is nothing but a profanity!

Heaven

is-2

may be 
the worries,anxieties,
fear,pain,the undivine forces,
the bondages..
my friends for life,
make me believe 
my abode is hell,
i will not trust them anymore
for they are like an overcast sky
covered with the passing clouds 
of my daily thoughts and conduct
and the sun will come out shining
pushing my imperfections and limitations away!
for i know
i am the child of God
to see only the light
to experience the eternal truth
the conscious realization of Almighty
the truth of freeing mind 
from the meshes of ignorance
or teeming darkness
to see the divinity's reality
in manifestation of my surrender
in my seeing the rays of omnipotence everywhere,
to find my way to heaven
right here on earth!
without waiting for death 
to unravel it for me. 

Voice

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the other day 
i found 
somebody is missing in me 
and that is ME!
i am not the only one in me 
suddenly realizing how many people
i am living with always
who have grown into a crowd 
speaking at a same time 
for i am listening to the voices of others
always 
the voices of forefathers priests friends neighbours
or enemies 
voices all jumbled up
forming a thick layer of cloud within me 
or the voices cropping up 
from the hideouts of biases fears unforgivingness
or the voices owing their genesis 
to the knoll of my hatred anxieties 
or paranoia!
oscillating between my thoughts to actions
or actions to thoughts
perplexed
i thought 
where is the room for listening to me 
my inner voice 
my inner guide 
amidst these multiple voices 
now i knew why mystics preferred mountains
for they wanted to hear less 
less of distractions to their 'self'
how do i make a conversation with me 
my consciousness!
learning to quit them for a quiet ME!
time to assert now 
to tell them ' please leave me alone'
knocking them out completely 
i thought 
may be possibly impossible 
but 
in my trying to find myself 
unburdening the past guilt biases
i can see the clouds blowing away 
for a clearer sky 
who knows 
i may find the grace within 
i may meet my inner voice 
my inner guide 
more often 
and those godsend moments 
within me or around!   
    
   

 

Oneness

is (6)

two drops of water merge
to create a larger drop
retaining their identities
the larger drop 
now falls into the ocean
to become one with the ocean
still keeping its molecules,atoms
but
with a gigantic canvas of consciousness
expanded to the infinity
feeling what the ocean feels
seeing what the ocean sees
hearing what the ocean hears 
in the oceanography of life 
we 
the tiny drops in the ocean 
called God 
one with HIM 
a reflection of infinity
with the soul springing from
or merging with the supreme soul
one with all 
or all with one 
if it is so..
the worldly sojourn needs
the rekindled energy of oneness
oneness of love 
for love being the raw material 
the cosmos is made 
and loving others 
means loving ourselves
loving ourselves means 
loving the God
let the oneness prevail
reincarnated,
protracted!  


Kamakhya


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