Do you know?

Do you know?

failures and rejections

are scattered around

the floor of my house

and I still

collect

preserve

those broken pieces of mirror,

obsolete coins,

handful of mists,

in half-broken

half-full heart

in the midnight?

Someone, a black shadow

standing still

behind the drapery,

unmoved

reticent.

I sometimes long

to find a vibrant soul ,

a talking parrot,

an unseasonal stream of love

from the shadow

overenthusiastically

but amidst

rains of tears

cyclone of heartache

and darkness of failed fantasies,

nothing is seen or heard

in the soundless post midnight?

Do you know ?

the questions

needing soothing answers,

ironically, go on to present

more and more new questions,

smokes of crackers,

thick black clouds

and a battlefield

of anxieties, despair,

a secluded long serpentine road ahead?

@ Kamakhya

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What you say !

is-12

as i embraced the new winter
under the blanket
still awake
eyes half closed
and began my soliloquy
searching solace from nostalgia,
you came on to the stage
en route the blanket
to sing the lullaby for me
when i longed for hearing your voice,
you sat still
like a silent freesia
i wanted to tell you
how the bench near the sea beach
laughing at me 
how the still hibiscus
sympathizing with me
how the photo frame on the wall,
accusing me
i wanted to tell you
how i missed the full moon
or even the thin crescent
after the fortnight of darkness
What you say 
say something now,
Please

Kamakhya


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Souvenir

the past haunts 
the heart yearns to travel 
the same road again,
lanes of unadulterated love.
the drizzling rain and 
the umbrella 
gift many mementos 
the old library becomes 
a mediator again 
the photo frame comes alive 
I love the soliloquy 
that follows.
futile though,
I search you behind the drapery 
as if you are playing 
hide and seek late in the night
yes 
the present overpowers the past 
and time never looks back 
but to say that 
the 'now' will push the ' then '
into oblivion,
will be wrong.
what you say ?


Kamakhya 


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Lantern


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You see i am unable to muster strength
with rashes in heart
and a raucous mind,
my companion.
the confines of scarry
solitary nights
still give rise to dream
the dream of layout of our future
once your cynosure
now needs a ferry
to reach the bedrock point,
of our togetherness
the hinge is missing somewhere
in the darkness of(mis) understanding,
i could still dream.
the lantern in your hand
searching the hinge
with me, together 
to ward off the abyss of murkiness,
here
or with you,there?


Kamakhya 

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What you say !

is-12

as i embraced the new winter
under the blanket
still awake
eyes half closed
and began my soliloquy
searching solace from nostalgia,
you came on to the stage
en route the blanket
to sing the lullaby for me
when i longed for hearing your voice,
you sat still
like a silent freesia
i wanted to tell you
how the bench near the sea beach
laughing at me 
how the still hibiscus
sympathizing with me
how the photo frame on the wall,
accusing me
i wanted to tell you
how i missed the full moon
or even the thin crescent
after the fortnight of darkness
What you say 
say something now,
Please

Kamakhya


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Faded Rainbow

the cool breeze 
and the drizzling thereafter
what a solace 
to the parched farm
rekindling the tiny plants
just the way we met
each other then
an exhilarating whirlwind
swaying in the vacuity
of my heart
the sprinkling new feelings
with wings of rainbow
enamouring all over
why the drizzling
turned into torrential rains
breaking the backbone
of tiny plants 
don't know 
where from the storm
in our understanding surfaced,
mildewing the innocent emotions,
the rain and the wind
returned to their places
with the new sunshine
except you..
I somehow managed
to pass the scorching heat
Of the day  
without the cool shades of you
by my side..
but how to resume a conversation,
with the twinkling stars
of solitary nights,now?
is there any rainbow
in the offing?
I don't know! 

Kamakhya 

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Lantern




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You see i am unable to muster strength
with rashes in heart
and a raucous mind,
my companion,
the confines of scarry
solitary nights
still give rise to dream
the dream of layout of our future
once your cynosure
now needs a ferry
to reach the bedrock point,
of our togetherness
the hinge is missing somewhere
in the darkness of(mis) understanding,
i could still dream.
the lantern in your hand
searching the hinge
with me, together 
to ward off the abyss of murkiness,
here
or with you,there?


Kamakhya 

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Flyleaf

is-5

why the rainy evening
reminds me my solitude
absence of symbiosis
i don't know 
falling down of the book 
from the bookshelf
was accidental
not my canvas of thoughts 
looking out for the cocoon of your love
the old book you gave me years back
a gift or an enrapturing memento 
to caress me much later
God knows
a garden of autumn just followed me
wherever my reminiscences went
coupled with the rainy winds
what a picturesque fragrance
of you..hovering near me
i noticed the last page
the flyleaf
unwritten,blank 
the pure white color has turned into off white
like an overcast sky
hiding the sun of subdued feelings
reinforcing the years gone by 
or 'the time heals' consolation perfectly ensconced 
i wanted to write something 
on the blank flyleaf
not for calligraphy or origami
but for meeting you
right there in the flyleaf itself
but could not write much
except
your name
and " God bless you ever"       
   
Kamakhya 

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Silhouette

is
my,mytime aloneness
in quiet midnight 
the tired world sleeps
a transitory stillness 
the siren of ambulance
outside, on the empty road,
brings me a shiver.
vulnerability of my living,
shedded leaves of fall
out side my window,
 the bald trees in grief,
eagerly wait for a springstart 
my longing heart 
still searches your silhouette 
behind the draperies,
in the blank white walls,
or in the overhead ceiling
silently, 
butterflies play hide and seek
in the middle of night
an aura of guilt
somehow hovers near me
as i dissect the then,
possible permutations 
and combinations 
i know 
you will come 
tomorrow, same time 
i will ask you then
when the overcast sky 
will blow away 
for a sunny bright day 
when will i see you 
other than in my lyricism!


Kamakhya 

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Corollary

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even after the scorching heat of hurt

of the day

when the moon stares at me

in the midnight

and  smilingly asks about you

tell me

how can  i  say

you have gone for a long walk

late in the night

when the other day the nimbus offered  help

to soothe the stagnation in our relationship

i told him

thanks , some other day

let the anesthesia effects be over

when i know

how much you long for your soulmate

silently, alone

why the armada of anxiety  fear of loss

loneliness and pain

be stationed  in  or  around  our houses

or hearts!

 

Kamakhya

 

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